I am going to be working full time in a few short weeks!
The paperwork is pretty much complete and I am due to start full time hours in March unless something drastically goes wrong. When I returned to work from having J I was in a bit of a dark place having been in the depths of post natal depression and thought that I would be better off at work and my daughter would be better off with other people caring for her
How wrong I was. I have since “recovered” and now J is in the toddler years I honestly love every minute of it. She is so cool and has somehow turned into a mini me (eek!), copying everything I do, even mirroring the number of times I knock my toothbrush on the bathroom sink after brushing my teeth, hopefully she won’t inherit my bad habits (which I won’t admit to as the hubster reads this!)
I won’t lie, there are times when her tantrums bring me close to having a tantrum myself, and there are some days where I just wish that bedtime will hurry up (don’t we all?) But in all seriousness, if you asked me now I would honestly tell you that I love motherhood so much and everything it and my little girl brings me.
J is walking, talking, interactive and is so much fun to be around with such an infectious laugh and I’m pretty certain I would rather be with her, tantrums and all. I take my hat off to full time mums, I am not built for that, but I guess I feel like somehow I will be missing out by losing those extra few hours each week
Today she actually played on her own for a bit of time, usually we are lucky if we get 10 minutes of her playing without wanting our undivided attention. She was content, giggled at Monsters Inc (her new favourite Disney film) and played happily with her Peppa Pig playground.
When some more friends arrived for coffee and cake she also enjoyed role play, making everyone cups of tea with the correct amount of sugars. It was so cute, and I am amazed at her development which seems to have stepped up a notch in the past fortnight and I’m pretty sure glasses are playing a huge part!
When the discussions took place regarding working full time it felt like it would be a long time away as it was initially discussed at the end of January, and that it wouldn’t be much of a change as I currently work 4 days. It has just crept up on me and I now have only 2 Fridays left with my girl before I start working them
I have managed to negotiate working a late shift on a Wednesday so I still get the 1-2-1 time with her in the morning but I’m pretty certain I’m going to miss her like crazy for those extra few hours a week I won’t be with her
So this week I look back at photos at the randomness of my little ladybug and I’m going to spend this week planning what to do on my last two Friday’s I have left with her before things change in Cooks Cabin (hopefully not too much eh?)